Truck It!

So I figured that whatever...so what if no one reads this. I wanna write in it and that's that.

Wow....

So guess what...I've just recently found out that no one reads this, so I don't think that I'm gonna be posting anything for a while...Probably unless it's a vent or something, cause whats the point of writing a blog if no one reads it right? Soo...Yeah..

...Whats The Point!

Hey guys...So I'm feeling a little down in the dumps lately, mainly because I feel as if my life is going nowhere. I mean everyone wants to do something amazing with there life right? Well that's the issue I'm having right now..I mean what kind of impression am I gonna leave when I die. What are people going to say about me...

"Wow Liz Johnson, she was a great cashier."

or

"Who's Elizabeth Johnson?"

I mean I don't think I can be happy with that. I mean I don't want like crazy power and fame, but I want to be remembered by something ya know, I don't want to die and have nothing to say for myself ya know? That's why I've been so busy trying to find my niche, like that's why I've been so determined to try and start my own clothing/accessory line. I want to make my mark on the world. I'm not comfortable being mediocre and living a normal life. I don't want to be just another face in the crowd any more! I'm sick of living life like I get another chance at it. I don't want to keep being just Elizabeth Johnson....But alas there's my problem. What the hell am I supposed to do?! What's my mark supposed to be?..(Wow! I just looked out the window and it is foggy as all hell out! Eww!)..But really...What the hell am I supposed to do, what's my legacy going to be? Am I gonna write a brilliant novel? Am I gonna be a world renowned actress? WHAT?! I hate this point in life..I mean am I the only one who doesn't feel like they have purpose in life? Who feels like just a blur in the fast paced world we live in? I really don't know what else to say..I mean I'm letting you all know that I'm not getting all suicidal on you, I'm just ranting and raving about how I've been feeling lately. I guess I feel to old to be anyone special..I mean yeah I'm 21...but hell I'll be 22 years old in November and I'm not getting any younger. I'm going to online college and I have a son with a boyfriend whom I constantly fight with. Ugh! I feel like I was supposed to be doing something great with my life ya know? Be someone great, and right now I'm literally the COMPLETE opposite of what I wanted to be. I just don't know what the hell I'm gonna do with my life. I feel like I'm being lazy too. Like I'm not pushing myself to be the person I wanna be, but I don't know what direction to push myself in. So it's like a never ending circle. UGH! Alright, I think I'm done bitching for now.

-Me.


(p.s- I know that being a mother is a wonder and great thing to be, but I want to be more than just a mother, I want to have the life I wanted on top of being a mother. And I know it's possible! I just have to know where I'm going and try my damnedest to get there!)